Oh BeHIVES

sooo Friday I was feeling pretty good. Aside from the pain from the port, I didn't feel tired or achy or anything and then BOOM hives. Broke out on my neck, chest and arms.  It was amazing. It's a tiny bit better today but I'm still pretty itchy. I'm taking Benadryl, which knocks me out, and the doc gave me a cream, My poor body. It's so scarred and bruised and itchy. The chemo makes your body heal waaay slower than normal, The port procedure left me with a gross bruise on my arm which is totally normal but its nasty and will take a while to go away.
I think I am going to shave my head tomorrow night. Even typing those words makes me want to vomit and cry but if I shave it before it falls out, I'll have the power, which my wonderful brother, Darren Michael Robinson, pointed out to me-. If I'm so stressed about losing my hair, then I should just shave it and take that power away from the chemo. It makes me sad to think I wont see my real hair again until probably August, but John keeps reminding me that it will grow back and this is temporary and that I'm beautiful with or without hair. Oh looky there, now I'm tearing up again. This whole experience has been such a huge wake-up call.  Certain things that I stressed about before, I wouldn't dare stress about now. I'm learning to appreciate the things in life that I may have taken for granted before. I know I say it every time but I have an incredible support system (all of you guys). Ireally don't think I could do this without any of you and don't think for a minute that your concern and support has gone unnoticed.

Love you all

I'll keep you guys posted on my bald head