And Scene

Well jerks, I made it through about 3 1/2 months and 6 rounds of chemo. When you see someone else going through it, you never in a million years think you could do it. I am here to tell you that it is do-able. If you are reading this and just starting chemo, I promise you that you can get through it and I will help you.

Did I have my moments where I broke down? Absolutely. But I had those moments pre-cancer as well. Did I have my days where I didn't feel great? Sure. But I had those moments pre-cancer as well.  Did I have my moments where I wanted to strangle my next-door-neighbor? Sure. Those moments actually came post-cancer but you get my point. If you go into chemo with a horrible attitude and think it's going to be the worst thing ever, then it will be. If you go into it with a positive attitude, knowing it's temporary, then you will be fine. You just have to take it one day at a time. It actually went by pretty fast for me.

I have had such an amazing support system these past 6 months. So much so that I am overwhelmed (in a good way).  I have had people in my life who I didn't talk to often, check in on me frequently. I  also had some "friends" who haven't checked in on me at all, which has been hard.

I need to thank my boyfriend, John. He moved in pretty much right after I was diagnosed. It was supposed to be a happy, exciting event in our lives and it turned into a necessity. I am looking forward to getting back to my normal routine and taking over some of the chores that he has taken ownership of. He never gave me a hard time about doing all the cleaning, or getting me food or coming home early because I didn't feel good. He never once complained. He always made me feel beautiful, even when I was a bloated, hairless mess. He held my hand through all of it and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

I also want to thank all of my friends and family members. There are way too many to list and I'm afraid my chemo brain is going to forget someone accidentally and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. You know who you are and I am so grateful all of you are in my life. You have shown me what it means to be a good friend, brother, mother, father, aunt, uncle and cousin. Again, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

I am going to miss seeing  staff at Tower Oncology every 3 weeks, but they can't get rid of me that easily. I have their email addresses muuwuwwhahahhahha.

This is starting to sound like an acceptance speech and I guess I should save some of it for my wedding. No, I am not engaged and yes, I am positive I just freaked John out :)

And now, onto radiation....stay tuned

For your visual pleasure, below is a picture of me at my last chemo session, complete with a hello kitty bow and skull scarf