Driving Miss Stacey

I got one of my drains out today. I stressed myself out real good last night and this morning thinking about it. It wasn't bad. It didn't hurt, just felt like a tiny snake being pulled out. My doctor was very gentle so I barely felt it. Hopefully I can get the other one out by Thursday. Once it is out, I think I'll be feeling much better. Still sore and stiff, but every day it gets a tiny bit better. My doctors are so wonderful and kind, which helps because if you know me, you know I am a hot busted stress case.

I can't drive yet so John had to drive me today. I sat in the back seat like Driving Miss Daisy, with a pillow between me and the seat belt. He has been such a trooper.

I got to see my knock knocks for the first time today. The right one looks pretty good. It's the one with the implant. The doc said it was a small C, which is nice because that's bigger than I was before all this nonsense. The left one still needs some TLC. It looks pretty awful but that's expected with reconstruction. I just need to be patient, which I am not.

As Time Goes By

A week ago today, I was in the operating room. It seems like just yesterday my breast surgeon was telling me that I would need a double mastectomy and now it's a week after having it done. Last week was such a blur (as you can see below). Soooo many people emailed and texted me and it's all so hazy. I hope I didn't say anything offensive to anyone. I feel like I was drunk for 5 days straight. They kept pumping me with pain meds and anti anxiety meds and at the time I felt like I was fully aware of everything but after talking to John last night, I realize there's a lot I don't recall haha. Oh well, I guess that's expected.

So it's been a week and I am still pretty sore. I am up and moving around, but very slowly. I still have drains. I will get one out tomorrow and probably the second one out a few days later. I have a sports bra on that I can't take off. I think once that comes off, I'll feel a bit of relief. It's most uncomfortable when I am sleeping because it hurts to be reclined.

I can't really fully see my boobs, but the right one looks pretty awesome from what I can see.  I'll have to be patient with the poor left one. I look forward to the day when I can wear a swimsuit again  or a low cut shirt.

We're All Stars Now In The Dope Show

So I am looking at my blog and I have no recollection of writing the post below this. I guess I was more drugged up than I thought hahaha. And who titles a post "Grey's Anatomy" anyway? So stupid.

Grey's Anatomy

I am sitting here in the hospital, day 4, watching Sex and the City and thought it would be a great time to blog.  My surgery went well. There were no signs of cancer and I couldn't be happier. I am healing pretty well so far. Not a ton of pain. I did get a lil pukey Monday but that's expected. I have a team of doctors and nurses waiting on my hand and foot, plus John. The food is bleh and I don't really have an appetite. I miss Bert and Lola and want my own bed but they don't want to send me home til they know I can walk on my own. I just get so tired so easily, but it's baby steps. They had to put an implant on my right side and an expander on the left, which is fine. It was the safest choice and I am okay with it. I will need a second surgery to swap the expander out for the implant probably in about 2 months, depending on how I am healing. I'm not in too much pain just yet. More updates as I heal :)

Healthy Food Can Be Delicious

I really try hard to eat healthy. Sometimes it's not easy. When I go out to dinner and there's a kale salad and spaghetti and meatballs on the menu, it's hard to make the healthier choice. I've been playing around with a recipe that I think is actually really tasty and extremely good for you. Check it out and if you give it a try, let me know what you think:

-Quinoa (as much or as little as you'd like)
-Some sort of vegetable- I usually use brussel sprouts, but this week there weren't any organic ones so I used kale. Spinach or asparagus would be great too. Again, as much or as little as you'd like.
-Handful of walnuts, roasted (almonds would also work great)
-Handful of goji berries (you could use raisins or golden berries or any dried fruit really)
-Turmeric
-Salt
-Pepper
-1 lemon
Make the quinoa as directed on the package and do a rough chop on the nuts and pop them in the oven til you can smell them. If you are using brussel sprouts or asparagus, chop them up and pop em in the oven with the nuts and a bit of olive oil and salt and pepper.  With the kale, I just chopped it up and added it to the warm quinoa to wilt. After the quinoa is done, mix in the roasted nuts and vegetables and add the goji berries, salt, pepper and turmeric to taste (you can add whatever spices you'd like).  Then squeeze the juice of one lemon in that bad boy and voila! You have a healthy dish.

The Happiest Place On Earf

John and I went to Disneyland/California Adventure today and we had a blast. I LOVE Disneyland during Halloween-time. They do it up right. They turn the Haunted Mansion into Nightmare Before Christmas and put pumpkin stuff all over the park. I was so sad I wouldn't be able to go this year but I was feeling good and wanted a to have a fun time before my surgery on Monday so we went. We ate nothing but crap and I loved every minute of it. The crowd wasn't too bad and the weather was just right. I had a beanie on and had to take it off a few times in the bathroom because I was hot, but for the most part, it wasn't bad. The only ride we didn't get to go on because the wait was 2 hours was Radiator Springs Racers at Cali Adventure. The line is always so long for that ride and we never want to wait.  And now I will rest my feet and watch Wendy Williams.

John on California Screamin'

John with a goat in the Disney petting zoo

You Down With Pre-Op (Yeah You Know Me)

I had a great pre-op appointment today. My plastic surgeon and my breast surgeon were both in the room (they work together) and said my left breast looks much better than it did last time and there is a chance they will be able to put implants in at the time of my mastectomy!!! They won't know until they are actually operating but the fact that it is a possibility made me feel so much better.  I got to try implants on (in my bra) and I think I am going to go for the full B, small C if possible. I don't feel as nervous about the surgery now. I am more excited to get brand new boobs. They will take some time to settle and look the way I want them to but they can't look much worse than they do right now. My surgery date is October 20 and I will be in the hospital for a couple of days.  I will keep everyone abreast of my situation (see what I did there).

Mom's Feeling Better (Anyone Get That Reference??)

I'm finally starting to feel better. This weekend is the first weekend since May that I have plans. Yesterday John and I went to Placentia to visit one of my best friends and her hubby in their new amazing townhouse. I didn't want to leave.

Then last night we went to a friend's birthday party at a local bar. It was so great seeing everyone and being around humans.

Today we are going to visit our friends and their dog Trixie, who I am in love with. After that, we are heading to my cousin's son's first birthday party.

I am tired but I am so grateful I am feeling well enough to get the hell out of this house

On The Good News Lollipop

Some good news, FINALLY! My petscan yesterday came back A-OK. Still no cancer anywhere else in my body. My left breast lit up a bit but not nearly as much as it did in May and it may not be cancer, it could just be scar tissue from my lumpectomy.

I also started using Latisse on my brows and lashes last night. Yay. I am sooo anxious to see if it works. Last time, my eyebrows didn't really grow back and my lashes were lame, but I didn't use anything to help them grow.

For the first time since May, I have a full weekend of seeing friends and family and I cannot wait!!!